2 am ramblings

--I'm now only working one job, they were able to work me full time. So that's good, but up til now I feel like I've been putting in the same hours not having any extra time. I have the next couple days off, and I'm kind of excited, but since I have gotten used to working so much I don't know what to do with so much time to myself.

--I've been feeling the craft bug lately so maybe I'll go to the fabric store. I've been looking at patterns for pajamas and a hooded sweatshirt for Abbi. It sounds fun but maybe a bit complicated for my skill level. We'll see.

--Still no conclusion to the baby issue. Still going back and forth and back and forth and back and forth. Have I mentioned before I hate making decisions?

--I'm thinking about cutting my hair super short. Usually about once or twice a year I want a big change, something different, that time of year is now.

--Having friends is hard. Maybe that's why I'm not a good friend. I feel so awkward around most people and I'm not sure why. I'd rather stay home with Abbi. Maybe its my low self esteem or general social awkward-ness? It's easy to hang out with Martin and his friends, cause they are guys and easy going. I'm just typing as I'm thinking and it's not very clear, sorry.

--Blogging is depressing. I'm done for tonight.