nervous

I am so nervous about my first day. Any time I think about it, it makes me sick to my stomach. I think my biggest fear in life is failure. Sometimes I would rather sit and stagnate and do nothing than to try at something and fail. Sad huh? That's why I dropped out of my AP (advanced placement) class in high school after the first term. Anyway...

I went shopping for work clothes today. It was so hard to find just a normal long or short sleeve button up shirt. They had lots of 3/4 length shirts, but I'm not sure if I can wear those. I don't think so, but I need to ask. I finally found one at the third store I went to, but it makes me look like a boy :( My shoes look like boy shoes too. Martin actually had some that looked a lot like it, but they are SO comfy that I don't care.

I'm going to have to always wear my hair down, and wear earrings or something to 'girly' me up.

I think with my first paycheck I want to buy these... ...and wear them with some cute khakis. They're super cute shoes! Plus they are girly! I love them.